Alrighty then, looks like I'm blogging. :) I'm not quite sure why yet, but I know writing makes life easier. So who knows what's going to happen here. This could be a random collection of my deepest thoughts, or I could end up making fun of my brother blowing up a vinegar/baking soda bomb in his face like earlier today. hehe The only forewarning I'll give is that I'll probably be very straightforward, most posts will probably intersect with something in my life that's a result of my incredible relationship with my heavenly Father. So lots of "God said this and I cried my eyes out" or "God did that and I thought about this, which taught me xyz" I'm going to try keeping this real, relevant and revelatory. :D This is life from the perspective of Alexander Rohmann.
Today's been a little crazy. Lately I've been thinking alot about who I am... and who God made me. I've been realizing how I've been running from my identity for most of my life. And I'm beginning to see my true self for who God's made me. And he hasn't stopped surprising me.
Here's the interesting thing about intimacy with God. The level of intimacy is capped off by your self image. How you see yourself plays into how you think God sees you, which creates a relational barrier. And that barrier begins to separate you from God. Throw in a little sin, and you've snowballed yourself farther away from God than you'd ever know. Separation from God compromises your anointing, hinders the advancement of your destiny, and continues to corrode your identity. Knowing who you are is everything. It affects your relationship with God, your relationship with people, how you see the world around you, and how you activate (or don't activate) the God given talents and giftings inside of you.
See, I was trying not to turn this into some kind of preaching session, but I think that was more of a reminder for me. Earlier today, I was driving through concord, and I just got this mental image of God's perfect design in every single person. And he started by showing it in me. How he took everything into consideration before putting me on this earth, down to the exact date of June 20th 1990 when I was born. There is an unstoppable force in every human being, and it's called destiny. Destiny's kryptonite is a broken sense of identity.
So that's what's stirring in my spirit right now. And actually that's really only part one :) Here's another thing that kinda hit me today. I was playing some Misty Edwards in the car, and these lyrics kinda popped out at me.
Once again I'm going to shake everything that can be shaken,
Once again I'm going to break everything that can be broken,
Are you ready? Are you ready for this?
And this verse came to my mind that was on my heart several months ago.
Hebrews 12:28-29
28Therefore, since we are receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, let us be thankful, and so worship God acceptably with reverence and awe, 29for our "God is a consuming fire."
Haha I barely know where I'm going with this at this point, but I'll try to stumble through it. The quickest way to know where you stand is to be shaken. I've told a few people close to me that I feel like God is closing a season of my life and opening a new one. I have no idea what's up with that. And now it's like God's saying I'm going to be shaken. Well, my first natural response is... God you gotta be kidding me? More of this? Can a guy get a break? The word shaken, is a scary word. And I'll be honest, there's a little fear in me about what God's up to. Being shaken is not fun. Nothing is consistent. I've had some extreme highs and lows. But there's a hope, which becomes confidence, which becomes courage, which brings a decent amount of excitement. :) And the hope is in the incredible growth that I've seen come from some of the most painful experiences in life. There's a part of me that can't be shaken, and that's the only part that God actually cares about. So if God takes things up a notch, then I can only be assured that he is bringing me closer to Him. And that his glory will be revealed in and through my life. This unshakable part of me, is my true identity, the me that God created in perfect design and the me he has plans for. So whatever he needs to do to raise that up.... I know I can stand boldy and remain secure in the love of my Father who loves me.
Well then, that's about wraps up what's on my mind. Hopefully it made some sense. :D until next time then.....
Regards,
Bander
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